Just wanna run away...

I long to pack up my bags as just say goodbye to this time and place. To wander to a totally strange and new land - a place where no one knows me. To start anew. Just to be who I really am.

Though I know every nook and crany has got it's own share of up and down, I still long to do it.

Aiyah... I'm already way pass my 30s... shouldn't I be more sure of myself by now?

DEL is FOUR!

Celebrated this handsome not-so-little boy's birthday yesterday... I can still recall how nervous we all were when his momma went to labour to welcome the shocking 4kgs little bundle of joy.

See the Ather Noel at the back? Sibuk juga mau main his guitar for the Birthday song :)

His mom and dad had to work after dinner last night and he asked his aunty if can make "yellow cake" with chocolate inside and outside - so aunty attempted with whatever she's got at hand at 9 pm. He got his request at 11pm and went happily to sleep after having his yellow cake (i.e. butter cake with choc chips inside and choc ganache outside).



Hard to imagine that this is Del 4 yrs ago... :)

Passion reignited

My nights and days are spent thinking about it... What on earth am I talking about you'd ask... event managing, that's what! I didn't think it was that serious, but here I am, spending any extra bit of possible minute thinking about it.

2 years ago, we organized marriage renewal where 22 pairs renewed their vows infront of children, family and friends. This year, our precious group of youth would like to say thank you to their parents during Mother's day by organizing candle-light dinner for all parents in our church. The noble idea of this came forth as many of these couples have not, and will probably not have the chance to go to restaurants for nice and quiet dinners alone.

The youth are going to organize, set table and chairs, cook, serve, entertain, babysit etc etc during the night. It's a big task for them; many of which are first timers at this game - but it will be so much fun!! I'm so excited just thinking about it. Yes, yours truly is in charge (my youth reasoned that though I'm a mom, I won't have anyone to dine with, and they need my help anyways, so there goes my appreciation!) - but hey, I'm not complaining... Aside from baking, organizing this kind of things has always been my joy! And to do it with a limited budget - BRING.IT.ON!

There's about 60 couples to cater for in 2 weeks time! Anyone with ideas (especially low or no cost ones) - feel free to throw it in!

Take me home country roads...

Went back down the dusty road again for a "instant" trip last weekend... Missing the solitude terribly even before my feet touched back to where I'm suppose to belong....

wishing I can just simply submit my letter, pack my bags and disappear to the ends of the earth...

Oh... and this was the reason I went back for the instant trip... It was well worth the long, bumpy, straining journey... Majority 473 - I'd like to think the "3" was my mom, my bro and I :) Photo courtesy.

It's been a roller coaster ride...

it's been emotionally draining at work these few weeks.... not so much of what, who, when... but more on a personal side.... i am rendered speechless most of the time, when others "assume" that their action is in the best of my interest... which means i am not a good judge of my own ability? it's quite degrading too... as people think that i am in need of "sheilding" so I don't burn and collapse... don't really know what to say and how to say it... but truly, alienation is a bitter cup. Poeple say - hey, just be yourself and be happy - but then, what is being happy when it's all a show? that people act that all is well and in the process, being actors and actresses and not revealing the truth... indeed William Shakespear was right when he said "All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players"... entah lah... but so demoralized lately... i could live with demoralization, but that being done by dear ones makes it too hard to bear....protecting, but in the end, destroying a trust.... i really don't understand the logic... more of these days to come... much much more.... just have to endure it i guess... kalau ikutkan hati, mau ja p mencederakan sesuatu untuk kasi lepas stress - boleh ka?

Chocolate Cravings....

Because I've not updated this space for ages....

Because I need to show that I'm still alive and kickin'....

Because today is a Moan-day (hey, this is the day especially made you'd say - yes, yes, I know!)

Because we all love chocolate....

Because choc is supposed to make us happy....

Because we need to be "happy" on a Moan-day...

And just because... Hehehe... berapa banyak because la....

OK, here's a very special bake... I don't really favor baking layer cakes because it takes ages, but I will still bake it on request. My first time baking this Kek Lapis India was last Hari Raya when Ms. Bestie requested for it. Believe it or not, I didn't even taste even a bit of the cake (talking about big faith!!). But she loved it (YEAY!). And so did her sister-in-law (double YEAY!).

Recently, her SIL had a craving for this cake (the little one in her tummy craved for it, la). So, though she was in Bintulu, she requested that I send over the cake via bus. So I got busy busy happily. This is an... expensive and rich chocolate layer cake... lots and lots Cadbury bites (no cheating... this cake calls for Cabdury, so Cabdury it is!)

I used the chocolate rather "sparingly" (yes, yes, lokek I know), but then this much is really enough to bring out the chocolaty taste... Normal process... put the mixture and layer with chocs... over and over again...

And here's a baked layer... Yeah, a bit burnt :P opppssyyy!

I just realised I didn't take the photo of the completed cake... hmmmm... oh well... there's always a next time right? :)

Anyways, once again, with my super confidence, I didn't taste even a bite of the cake. And off it went to Bintulu to satisfy the little baby... and satisfied was the Mummy :)

And for a moment, the world seems at peace.