Have you ever feel like you always have to walk cautiously? Like... when things are well and rosy, you think that you need to be careful, because you don't know when the next thing will happen, because in your head, the next thing WILL be bad.
Well, sometimes I feel like that. I feel like when a relationship / friendship is going on so well, that we spend a lot of time together, that I'm just waiting for it to fail, for it to crumble, for my friends not to like me anymore that they exclude me from every thing. I'm afraid of that, afraid of being hurt, being left. Sometimes I ask if I'm genuinely liked, if my "friends" talk about me behind my back.
And thus, I build a fortress.
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