Trouble with the first step

Noel is going to take his first step into schoolland this year... the "real" schoolhood. We've been telling him over and over again that he's going to Er Siao (Chung Hua # 2). The first blow was when the PK HEM called in Nov to tell me that he got accepted into St. Paul instead! I appealed.

Just got news, my 2nd blow. Yesterday in church, after service, Noel and I prayed for his school. We prayed that God puts him where He wants him to be... St. Paul. That's where he's located. Er Siao rejected him again.

Should I re-apply again? Should I go and tell them that St. Paul is SO FAR from my office and SO FAR from my home? I don't know... I really don't know... Mom keeps calling, telling me to re-apply again... but didn't I pray that God choose? That God determines where He wants Noel to be?

What's Your will? Please give me peace as I guide my little one in his 1st step to the big world... Please....

H.O.P.E.

I translated a sermon on 20th December... it was all about hope...

H - Hope in Christ
O - Organize your life
P - Pray
E - Example

Life has been a real mess this year... Especially this end of the year... Not too sure why... did i let it get messy? If so, why? I have no reason, no answer...

This sermon, basically hit me in the face... coz I am reminded, that though I still have Hope in Him, the Alpha & Omega, I too, should take time to Organize my life..., to Pray... and to be Example in my walk with Him. All these should draw me closer to Him.

Right now, I long for that time, I can be alone, and organize my thoughts, my life, my all (and my room!!!), to be with my Creator... it is a luxury indeed... a luxury that unfortunately, I can't afford right now...

I just want to be alone.