Friday, December 30, 2022

Going into 2023

How time flies.  Macam mau nangis as we end this year 2022.  So many things has happened.  Noel left for studies in Negeri Sembilan leaving me with an ache so deep, I started seriously doing Grab to get extra income, went to Langkawi with Noel and Jane in March, I scaled the tallest mountain in Southeast Asia in June, a feat that I knew was almost impossible.  That will be a story for another day, a journey deserving it's own post.  I also started my #dydymustbuy baking business in August.  It started with not being able to Grab on Sundays, because, well, it's Sabbath.  So I was thinking what can I do to still generate income when I'm "resting" at home.  What started with just one cake (divided into 9 portions), it has spread into buns, scones, even cornflakes bersira.  Again, this seems to be like a story deserving it's on post.

I think the worst for me in 2022 is losing a very good friend, one I'd say is closer than a sister.  Over what?  Because I had enthusiastically organized and invited someone whom I know she had some issues with for trip that was supposed to be exclusively ours.  It hurts so terribly to know that the many years of friendship meant nothing when it can just be "turned off" and the hatred for the other person is bigger than the love I thought we had for each other.  I am still hurting, and I don't know when this void in my heart will heal.

Anyways... the actually reason I'm posting here today is because well, some things aren't for sharing on socmed.  Every year for my birthday, I would go away to be alone.  Sometimes it's just a hole out in the city, last year it's a trip up to the mountain (a post on its own) and this year, I decided to do a solo drive to Sibu.  

Earlier this year on Jan 3rd, because of prior family trip arrangements, after sending Noel to his college in N9, I drove solo from Miri to Sibu and then continued on Sibu - Kuching the next day. And because of this, I kind of gotten addicted to solo roadtrips.  I've always been a fan of roadtrips, but doing it alone takes it to the next level.  The serenity and peace as you drive with your thoughts (throw in some tears, some screaming on top of your lungs belting out fav songs, some movie etc) is beyond words.  When I was contemplating where to hide out for my birthday this year, this solo foodie roadtrip was No. 1 on my list.  Most importantly, I love the food that I would be able to eat along the way. My own worry on these solo trips is what if the car breaks down or / and tire puncture.

The night before the trip, some of our colleagues (we call ourselves the 99 gang because we frequent a place called 99 to drink) had a Christmas gathering and gift exchange.  And of course we drank like nobody's business and went home late.  So the next day, I only left the house at 7.30am, instead of 6am as I had originally intended.  I'll just narrate my story based on the photos.

9.45am. 1st stop.  Of course, mee goreng Lachau.  I thoroughly enjoyed this plate and because I wanted to catch up on the time I quickly left without a trip to look around at the market.  I was so sleepy on the way from Lachau to Sarikei.  A couple of days before the trip, I downloaded 3 Shah Rukh Khan movies so I put on Kuch Kuch Hota Hai to watch as I drive.  Of course I ended up with swollen eyes la! 

I continued the journey to Sarikei.  I'd normally stop at Jakar for the sio bee, but this time, I didn't feel like eating that.  I had been craving for my Chao Chai Hung Ngang in Glory Cafe Sarikei for the longest time.  So I drove straight to Sarikei.  Alas, the cafe was closed.  So I went to the next "must-eat" in Sarikei.  1pm.  Roti Bakar Aik Seng.

A few days before the trip, I read about this place in the blog of a famous Sibu blogger.  I was not hungry, but looking at the food, I decided to makan here along with what I had originally came here for.  The food?  Good, but pedas mau matiiiiiiiiii.  2.45pm.

And this is what I had come for... pumpkin pie... astaga..... SEDAP mau MAMPOSSSSSS.

A trip to Sibu is incomplete without a trip to my fav gelato place.  I don't normally eat gelato because it's so expensive, but I indulge here in Sibu.  I tapau-ed and had the ice cream in the car.  3.20pm

Again, a few days before the trip, I stumbled across an article about cafes in Sibu.  This cafe looked good on the list, so I decided to dropby before checking in to the hotel.  The cute coffee teddy was worth the stop.  4pm.

In April this year, I took a roadtrip to Sibu with Noel, Adel and Noel's friend Beckham.  We stayed at Kingwood as usual.  During that trip, the pool had recently open and they served beer at the pool.  There's a great view of the Rajang river from the pool and I was actually looking forward to having a cool beer at the poolside.  Unfortunately, they did not serve beer or other drinks anymore at the pool.  So I quickly went down to the riverbank and as always, Sibu has never failed to give me a beautiful sunset.

For my birthday dinner, I was contemplating on either Ayam Penyet from Lot 10 in Sibu (oh the sambal!) or Chicken Rice from New Capitol (oh the fluffy, fragrant rice and the tender, juicy, succulent chicken!).  But again, reading the famous Sibu blog, I decided to come here instead.  6.45pm.

For this.  I don't know when I started to love fish and chips.  I'm always on a look out for good ones, but at the same time, always unwilling to try most places because I'm afraid of disappointment.  But after reading his post on this outlet's fish and chips, and that they use fresh fish daily, I was sold.  It was full house inside that night, but being alone, they managed to squeeze me in, in between 2 large group of people.  Despite the stares, I enjoy my birthday dinner tremendously.

When I left the hotel that night, the parking was so packed as there was a function in house.  So the guard advised me to come back after 9.30pm to ensure I have a parking.  With time in my hands, I decided to go to Ta Kiong to walk around and I found this wine; which I had thoroughly enjoyed with another friend earlier in November.  So I decided to grab a bottle, whether or not I could finish it, it doesn't really matter.  And by 10pm, I was already in bed, and had a really good night sleep.

Early the next day, by 7am I left the hotel and went to Sunday service in this church.  Their service starts at 7.30am.

After the 1 hour service, of course no trip to Sibu would be complete without a kampua fix.  As always, my fav is Soon Hock. 9am.

When I'm in Sibu, I normally like to be early to grab some kompia, but because I woke up late today, I only managed to go after breakfast.  Of course I regretted it as I couldn't find any parking and had to walk quite far to the kompia place, which of course had to be sold out.  IMHO, Sheng Kee 63 has the best kompia kosong whilst Fatt Bakery has the best butter kompia.  but I had to wait for 30mins for Sheng Kee's that morning, I decided to just grab what I can from Fatt because I was rushing to go back to the hotel... to sleep! I got back to the hotel at 10.30am, quick shower and slept!  Woke up at 11.40, called front desk to see if the room was available for extension.  It was, but decided not to extend, because I didn't want to waste my annual leave.  So checked out at 12, and left for Sarikei.  Praying hard that my Glory Cafe would still be open then!

Yesterday on the way from Lachau, I called Glory Cafe to book their coconut pudding.  Because they picked up and took in my booking, I thought they were open yesterday too.  But I'm so glad that they were open today, and they indeed did keep my coconut for me.  I found a table to share with another lady, placed my order and waited patiently.  I arrived about 1.15pm and at 1.40pm this beauty came to the table.

And this.  Ah.  My heart.  Now I can die peacefully.  I've dreamt (and salivate) about this noodles since forever!  Thank you God for giving me a chance to makan this for my birthday.

A week before this trip, KFC had promotion of 3 snack plates for RM33.  I've not eaten KFC for the longest time because it was "pricey" and because they do not have coleslaw.  It was the same this time when we bought the promo set.  I've read that KFC in Sri Aman had the coleslaw, so I put this on my list of to-eat on this trip eventhough the drive in to town from the junction would take about 15 - 20 mins one way.

I bought a big tub + had a small tub that came with the snack plate set as well.  Took this photo to prove that I was in Sri Aman for KFC's coleslaw!  I DEVOURED both tubs.

How do you eat your coleslaw?  Mine?  With their cili sauce!  It was getting late, and I knew I didn't want to be on the road when it was dark, so I tapau-ed my KFC and had it on the way.  5pm.

Arrived Kuching at 7.30pm.  Was supposed to meet up with Marilyn to watch the World Cup Finals at 8pm.  So I decided to try my luck getting this Signature Mango Crepe cake at Kohi, Farley.  I enjoyed this earlier in Dec when Juwita was in town, and though I'm not normally a fan of crepe cake, this is an absolute beauty and I was soooooo happy to see it available in the cake display.

 And that ends my solo-foodie roadtrip!  Woohoo!  I might have enjoyed the trip if other people were to come along, but I wouldn't have been able to eat at much as I had, or at as many places, so I was really thankful that I got to do this alone.  Here's to all the mysteries 2023 will bring, and perhaps, I'd blog more moving forward.  You'll never know.

Thank you Lord for this year, for the joy and the pain, for always being there.  All glory, honour and praise belongs to you and you alone.  Now and evermore.


Saturday, June 5, 2021

Man Cave

 Do you have a man-cave?  Somewhere you retreat to, to be alone, away from the world.

In my family, there's 8 of us living under the same roof.  That's 3 nuclear families making up one big extended family.  Well, not so big actually.  just 8.  But that's still a lot.  And sometimes, it can get too much.  Too noisy, too chaotic, too hot (literally - because not all the areas has aircond).

But in this chaos, I am thankful that each nuclear family is blessed with our own room, with our own air-conditioning to boot.  I always remind the kiddo that even though he doesn't have his own room, he must be thankful for the fact that we DO have our own room, and a clean room that's so comfortable with our own comfy bed, good thick mattresses and pillows and most importantly, a nice cool air-cond.  And that my friend, is MY mancave.

Sometimes, I just retreat there after a whole day of work and when I do not have the energy to talk to anyone, including the kids, especially the youngest that needs help with her homework.  I just turn off and can be on my social media for hours.  Sometimes, I'd be on Netflix, but not that much, I somehow do not have the addiction to Netflix.  But when I'm hooked on a series, that's the end of the story.

We don't normally allow our kids to hide in their man-cave, a.k.a the room.  So they will almost always hang at the "study room", gaming (a.k.a shouting at online friends) or watching their movies etc. (rarely "studying").  And recently, I learn a new word from Noel - "mental man-cave".  Because the boys aren't allowed to cave in their room, they obey and will retreat to their "mental man-cave" even in the presence of chaos around them.

And that, I think is a very important skill I need to learn.  When things aren't going too well, when my emotions are hay-wired, when all I want to do is bolt... but I still need to function as a human being, I still need to cook and clean and be a mother / daughter, I need to learn to retreat to my mental man-cave, to have that peace in order to move on.

But most importantly, this mental man-cave shouldn't be filled with trash.  It needs to be filled with whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, praiseworthy (Phillippians 4:8), there are the things that should fill whatever man-cave that we are retreating to.  And this is a reminder to myself today.

Wednesday, May 5, 2021

Covid-19... what if...

 Isn't this thing such a nuisance?  I absolutely hate hate hate hate HATE it.  When we want to do things / activities and yet at the back of our mind, we are afraid that we might be infected or be a carrier and infect those who are our close contact.  There are things that we still carry on doing, so that life at least bears some resemblance of normalcy, but to be honest, at the back of my mind, "what if..."  The things that scares me most is, what if it kena Mom / Dad and it was because of me....

10 things I miss due to movement control order (MCO):

1.  Planning and GOING for JJCM trips

2.  Planning and hopefully meeting schoolmates (reunion that was supposed to be in June 2020).

3.  Hiking and makan2 with FREAK, Trienekens Hiking Club (without rasa bersalah).

4.  Church.  Full house.

5.  Freely hugging and kissing my kids.

6.  Cinema

7.  Love Language - touch.  To be able to touch and be close as you talk to others.

8.  Driving up to catch sunset at my fav spot.  Too crowded.

9.  Going out / coming home at any time.

10.  Giving and getting hi-5 from TMT kids first thing in the morning (when I was still in Tadika).


6 things I will miss after MCO (can't think up to 10 things).

1.  No traffic on the road.  At all.

2.  Sleep

3.  Minimal living

4.  Time with my own kids.

5.  Chillin (alone)

6.  Not having to rush going here and there (for tuition, meeting, activities etc)

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

Current Favorites

Because we are currently doing no carb diet (NCD), it's quite hard to find food.  But here are some current favs.  There are others, but I will need to find pictures.  Till then...

Chicken wings from 101 Premier.  There are 2 stalls there.  We do not like "Hans".  We prefer the one named BBQ King.  The laoban is very nice.  Even gave us extra pieces when he feels that his wings are small on that day.  Currently boleh makan hari - hari but segan.

Fried Chicken RM2 from Sumon stall depan Everrise Matang Jaya.  There are many Sumon outlets, but this is the best.  We normally just bring a container and buy like RM40 worth (20 pcs) and eat to our heart's content.  Such a life saver on lazy days.

McD or KFC nuggets are very expensive.  Sometimes, this is one of the easiest things to cook.  But this ain't cheap too.  RM 17.50 for one pack.

Not really an addictive item, but something we will sometimes crave.  Satay Ceko.  The sauce is a bit sweet, but they open (and have satay) at 7am, so that is a real bonus.  RM0.80 /ea for chicken.

This boleh bikin addictive.  Babi at Rumah Asap Tabuan Dayak.  There are many stalls, but we prefer this one.  The last one (I think it's called Tawau or Keningau stall - somewhere in Sabah), coz the guy used to work in Sabah before.  The skin is nicely crunchy.  Not cheap.  The above cost me RM46.  But well... sometimes just crave for it.

And THIS is my current fav.  Friday - went before work.  Ate 1.  Saturday, went after send Noel to badminton, ate 2.  Sunday, went with noel before church, ate 1.5 (shared 3 with Noel).  Monday, skipped because the kopitiam is closed.  Tuesday, busy whole morning, went at 11.15 to try my luck.  They were lelong-ing the popiah.  My luck. Buy 5 Free 1.  So I ate 1 at the shop, 1 in car and another 1 in car an hour later.  Today is Wednesday.  If it wasn't for my laziness to get dressed to go out, I would have gone here again.  Addicted.  This isn't exactly no-carb because (a) skin is made of flour and (b) jimaca and carrot grows under the ground making it not carb-friendly.  But, who cares.  It's just veg.  Mahal also.  One is RM3.80.


Monday, March 22, 2021

Keep going at it!

I dunno how it started, but it did.  And we kept on going.  Week after week after week.  It's been 3 months.  Even when it rained cats and dogs.  Even when we're in #cavemode and don't really wanna deal with another human being (or even each other).  We kept at it.  

And I'm super thankful.  Thankful for the comradeship. Thankful for the pick ups and sending home.  Thankful for the good food before and after.  Thankful for the light chats.  Thankful for the heart to heart sharing.  Thankful for the laughter (kasi ketawa orang most of the time). Thankful for the comfortable silence.  Thankful for the huffing and puffing.  Thankful for the companionship.  Thankful for the friendship.


9 Jan 2021

16 Jan 2021

23 Jan 2021 - 1st time Togs ikut.  And 1st time big group.  And 1st time the 2 guys ever reached Serapi.
Purdey is my schoolmate.  Purdey and Nana are Barb's drinking mates.
Peter is Purdey's brother.  Gabriel is Peter's friend.
#itscomplicated

30 Jan 2021

30 Jan 2021 - hujan lebat.  Togs pakai cermin mata.  Jadi, it "banjir" and made her motion sickness.  So, she couldn't reach the summit.

6 Feb 2021 - rained cats and dogs.  Sampai Serapi had to close their gates.  So we hiked at a nearby "temple" trail.  Twice.  Nuts.  Togs hiked the same trail but separately with her officemates.


13 Feb 2021 - Barb went for family outing to the beach.  So Togs and I went with her officemates.  #sekaliseumurhidupcukuplah

- I missed one day - 21 Feb 2021.  Because we have a close contact scare - 

27 Feb 2021

6 March 2021 - this was the first week we met "Aunty New Balance" - The night before the hike, Togs and I went to look for shoes (for togs).  And "we" fell in love with a pair of new balance shoes yang super mahal.  So she didn't get it.  Sekali see, the next day, there was an aunty who wore the same shoes.  She also used 2 "rukud" that looked so heavy for her.
This was also minggu "nur" - we tried to take photo of sun shining in the midst of pokok2, and yet Barb ended looking like performing the adzan.  Haha.

13 March 2021 - Togs missed this week.  Because her kaki terseliuh after badminton the day before.  Week 2 of meeting Aunty New Balance and her friend.  She said "cukup lah setengah jalan pakei kempis perut". hehe.

20 March 2021



 

Tough

This is a tough journey, I won't lie.  Constant daily struggle.  And I hope I'll never go back.

Simpan di sini buat kenangan. 
Dec 2016 would be around 90++ish.  Dec 2020 would be 68ish.


 

I still read blogs

 I have a bad habit in the office.  I love blog hopping.  I spend hours and hours on blogs.  Yea, I still do read blogs.  But I'm just lazy to write in my own...  I write in my insta, which makes my insta post akin to essay writing!  Bah!


It's March 2021.  Covid-19 came upon us in March 2020.  It's been a year, and this Covid thingy is still here.  And it looks like it's going to stay.


What do I miss most with this Covid situation?  Travelling.  I miss travelling.  I wish I had done more of it, but well, finances doesn't allow it.  But if I could again, I would.  And hopefully I'd be able to do more.  Alone, with Noel, with family, with friends (Jane et al).  Just travel.